It seems unusual to say for most people, but to me, it has indeed felt like a year since the passing of my mother. So many things have changed since then. Nothing feels like it has been a rush but rather a slow and tedious process. I am still not…

Statistically, most people have a sibling of some kind, either a full blood, half, or both. Due to my fathers desire to breed a small gang, I have six siblings. Only one of them is full blood, while the rest are all half. At the present time, I only communicate…

It is of no surprise to those who have read up to this point, but I have severe depression. If I took the time to get diagnosed, I am confident it would be considered clinical. After experiencing years of suffering from an anxiety, a myriad of crappy childhood problems and…

While I may not be an expert on the subject matter, I have recently experienced and am currently living through the loss of a love one and felt I should write down my experiences and thoughts on the matter. I will preface this by saying the things that I write…

I am a very opinionated person, but I am not an unreasonable one. I enjoy expressing my opinion and hearing the various ones that people have. Perspective brings a better understanding on topics you might not know the entire scope of due to your own limitations through tunnel vision. However,…

When faced with the loss of a family member, it isn’t unusual that the family bands together for a brief amount of time. While this isn’t a bad thing, it is also something I don’t necessarily care about. Having support from those you have familial ties to can bring comfort,…

Even when we express ourselves, there always seem to be parts we omit from others. It could be something simple as thinking the way someone laughs is annoying or they have a chipped tooth. There are also the darker ones, like wishing someone didn’t exist. Plenty of people internalize a…

It has been seven months since the death of my mother. After many chapters, and plenty of time to reflect, there is one large problem that still needs fixing. I have yet to move on from this event. I have pushed myself to get my medical issues fixed, and I have…

After my mother’s body had been taken to the mortuary and the nerves were finally starting to settle down, the family began informing those close to us about her passing. I had already sent a message to a few of my friends letting them know and decided that since no…

There is always that voice in the back of your head weighing in on things going on in your life. Sometimes it is warranted, like a second opinion except biased and irrational. Other times it is unwanted, and it continues to say things you’d rather not hear or continue thinking…

In my life I have experienced many losses; two dogs, a handful of fish, and a distant grandparent. None of which have come close in comparison to the pain I felt when I lost my mother to Inflammatory Breast Cancer on May of 2015. She struggled against an aggressive cancer for…

If there is a positive in death, it would be the ability to leave all your problems behind. Though, just because you have left them behind, doesn’t mean they vanish. Regardless of how personal the problem is, someone will eventually be forced to deal with it once you pass. For those…

Everyone has a secret, but once you die, those secrets tend to go with you, except the ones you leave behind. My mother wasn’t what you call secretive, rather, she was very selective of whom she told things too. Some people were informed about certain things, while others left completely…

Most people find something they feel like they were made for. Others stumble their way through life trying to find that answer. Regardless of which one you are, having a passion is something everyone finds at some point. It just takes time to start feeling that way. My mother did…

At some point up until now, I have mentioned I suffer from anxiety problems. You will also hear me reference it more later, but today, I am going to finally sit down and write it all out. My anxiety is something that has mostly been explained through various questions and statements,…